STOP FOOLING YOURSELF!

Here I am, checking in 2 weeks after my last check in...ugh. I blame that little thing that comes around once a month and totally destroys everything in its path! It wasn't a great couple of weeks on plan, but really all I had extra was a few chocolate chips here and there...yet that can do tons of damage to the weight loss efforts. I had gone up a couple pounds, but as of today I am -1lb from where I was last check-in! Back on track and not going in the freezer where those little devils are hiding. A friend of mine shared an excerpt from a book, which made me start thinking....how an I sabotaging my efforts! It's not worth it. This weight is not worth it to live my life the way it's meant to be lived. It's been a struggle of mine since high school and it's got to stop! How am I going to teach my family some day how to eat healthy. Am I really taking care of my "temple"? Things have got to change, I've got to start making better choices.


Here's the excerpt:

"STOP FOOLING YOURSELF" excerpt from the Beck Diet Solution book....

"Dieters have an amazing ability to delude themselves about food. They might be very rational and reasonable in other ways, but not when it comes to dieting. Think about the times you've dieted and were supposed to limit what you ate. Did you give yourself a "fake" excuse to eat? Here's a list of some self-deluding thoughts.....do you see yourself in any of these?

It's okay to eat this because...

It's not a whole piece
I'll eat it only this one time
It's not that fattening
I'll make up for it by eating less later
It won't matter
I paid for it
It'll go to waste
I'll disappoint someone if I don't
everyone else is eating it
I'm celebrating
No one will see me eating it
It's just the crumbs
It's free
I really want it
It's a special occasion
I'm upset, and I just don't care
I'm craving it, and I'll probably just eat it eventually

These thoughts delude you into eating when you shouldn't. After all....A CALORIE IS A CALORIE, NO MATTER WHEN, WHERE, OR WHY YOU EAT IT!

How to stop fooling yourself.....

There's usually a thought that precedes eating. Pay particular attention to the thoughts that start with the phrase.....It's okay to eat this because......

Then say to yourself -- I might not care right at this moment, but I'll care in a few minutes and then I'll be really unhappy and I SURE will care when I'm not losing weight!

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See if this helps you identify those sabotaging thoughts!

Happy Labor Day!

Happy Labor day!!! This is the first Labor Day in 8 years that I have had off. The only thing that would make it better is to have my hubby at home with me. Next year he's gunna have a job where he gets holidays off too! We're gunna make that happen!

It's also weight day! Well, I would say this week was a good one. I didn't meet my goal of loosing 3lbs, but I did loose 1.6lbs! If you remember I had actually started on Monday back up to my beginning weight from a bad weekend, but I went with my lowest weight from the week so that I could push myself this week for a loss. I'm at 183! This week I need to try and make up some of the 1.6 so I'm shooting for at least a 4lb loss. It's gunna be tough, but if I don't make it hard I won't keep working hard! We are heading to my moms later today so I decided to make cauliflower "potato" salad so that we have a green option that is healthy. I'm also marinating some sweet peppers we got from costco so that if I have some munchies, it's veggies NOT chips! That's going to be the struggle!

How did you do this week?

Week 1

Well, week one was great till the weekend when we went tubing with friends in San Marcos. I had lost 3 lbs before the trip began. I thought that I was doing pretty well, only a little extra beef jerky or snack, but I think it was the beer. So I didn't want to weigh in till today. Today I am at the same point I was before we left, so my week 1 weigh in is 3 lbs! I have my work cut out for me to be down by Monday...hoping for another 3!! Back on track and avoiding what isn't on my plan. Last night I even got the scale out to weigh it all! WooT! Looking forward to what this week holds for me and can't weight (lol) to be skinny by Christmas!

And so it begins!

Alrighty...well here we go. First day back on plan and no looking back! It's time to make a change and start living my life they way I know it should be! It's been an up and down summer, and now is the time to make that change! Let me know if you want to join me! I will be updating at least once a week!!!!

So where am I...unfortunately I'm at 187.6 lbs. YUCK! This is going to change! My first goal is 160 lbs (-27.6) by Oct 3rd--my husbands birthday!! My second goal is 145 lbs (-15) by Nov 7--my dads wedding week. And the final goal is by the end of November to be 140 lbs or less!!!! This can and will be done! Tomorrow I start getting back into my exercise routine too. Not sure if I'm starting the C25K program yet or easing back into things with a walk and some toning exercises. We shall see how I feel.

I'm trying to think up a contest for whoever wants to join me on my program. TJ and I can coach you through becoming healthier by giving you the tools you need to succeed! Feel free to email me (Kendra@TeamOgroske.com) or check out www.TeamOgroske.com! I am in this to win it!!!

It's now or never

I have a problem...and it involves food! Ugh. I have tend to be like a yo-yo and go back and forth even though I know I have an amazing program in front of my face. So here it is, I'm done. I'm fed up with myself and it's time to make this permanent. One joy in my life is helping people become healthier for life, and I forgot about myself in the mean time. I did great, and then life happened. At first it was a blessing as we were looking forward to our growing family, then it was a tragedy and I lost sight of the bigger picture....a healthier me. I've thrown in the towel and saying I'm done making excuses. This is it....here we go. TJ and I are on the roller-coaster towards being optimally healthy for good! We have goals in front of us...the first being my dads wedding. The time is now.

If you are interested in joining us on our journey, let me know. This isn't just about loosing weight (and I need to do that). It's about learning healthy habits for life. Not going back to where I was, or even where I am right now. I'm actually sitting here watching Man v Food and disgusted. The host for 3 years competed in challenges, and even though they aren't saying anything he has obviously gained significant weight and my guess is his health problems are why he doesn't do the challenges anymore. We have a problem in America...I wanna help!

Just what the Dr ordered

I have the best husband on this planet! The last week and a half has been rough on us both. To be honest I'm not sure what he's going through. I've been dealing with a lot of physical pain and emotions on and off. Part of me just isn't really sure what to do. I know there is a grief process, but I don't really feel angry or feel at fault. Something tragic happened and there isn't a way to explain it or place blame. Our God is a great God and He knows what's best. I can't comprehend His ways, and never will be able to, but for some reason this baby wasn't meant for this earth and I will meet him/her someday in Heaven. That doesn't make it easy either. It's hard to go out due to everywhere I tend to go there are big baby bellies, strollers, newborns, you name it and it just reminds me of my loss. I haven't gone back to work due to the physical pain, and now that it is starting to go away I'm dreading seeing them again. I just want to go back to work like nothing happened, which I know it's going to be possible. Same thing with going to church. I need to get back to life and not have everyone coming to comfort me. I appreciate the prayers and notes, yet the in person consoling it what starts to tear me up. I know this is part of the process, just dreading it all.

So, here I am sitting in a hotel that is beautiful and away from everything with my loving husband. It was just what we both needed--to get away. Yes, I know we just got home from vacation, but this was needed after all we have been through. Later today we are both having facials and then a couples massage--much needed relaxation. We also have had amazing friends an family...there when we need it and give us space too. We have been blessed by having meals delivered so that we don't have to think about that yet and couldn't imagine what we would've done with out that! Thanks Steph for coordinating all the meals.

Soon it's back to reality--possibly going to work tomorrow. It's not going to be easy, but at some point I have to come completely out of the cave of my bedroom. I know through God I can get through this and become even stronger. It's time to stop trying to do it on my own and realize only through Him can this be done. Thank you for your prayers!

Starting Over

Well, it's been a while since I've posted last and a lot of things have happened. The summer was going along and very very hot! I went to the TSFL Convention in Orlando and spent some time with my dad, and then three days later returned back to dads to go on a cruise! The cruise was awesome (I'll write about it later), but towards the end I started having a bad feeling that something was wrong with my baby. We made it all the way home without having any problems and then came Monday (yesterday). I started bleeding heavier and by 3:30 I had lost our baby. Nothing can describe the pain both physically and emotionally you go through loosing a child. I was at the Dr's office when everything happened and they sent me home with medicine. By the time I got home I was in immense pain from cramping. Didn't know that this would be coming. They called in some pain meds (hydrocodone) but that didn't even take the edge off so we went to the ER around 7. They gave me fluids, zofran, and dopamine. That helped, but still was in some pain. They did an exam and cleaned out some clots stuck in my cervix and also did an ultrasound. They sent me home around 11:30 and told me to up the amount of hydrocodone to I could sleep. Today is better, but still in some pain from the cramping. I am told this could last through Friday. I am hoping it's gone by the end of the day tomorrow cuz I really want to go to Leadership Summit on Thursday and Friday--only time will tell. My mom spent the day with my husband and I bringing him dinner cuz I didn't want to eat. It was comforting just having her here even though I didn't know what she could do to help me. My grandmother and grandfather are coming over tonight with dinner which will also be good. I hope that I feel well enough to partake in our ritual of playing Oh Heck! :)

So where am I now--well I gained quite a bit of weight in 3 months so I'm at 187.6. I started back on my program today eating wise and hopefully next week can begin the Couch to 5 K program again. My goal is to loose 32.6 lbs by Nov 11--my dads wedding. That would put me at 155 with only 15lbs to go. I hope I can get my body in better shape by the time we can start trying to have a child again. I know God has a plan for us to be parents and this baby was just too good to be here on earth with us. Our baby is now with our Heavenly Father and He is taking real good care of him/her till will we see them someday when we are all partying in Heaven.