It's a brand new day!

Again I have been gone for a while. Why do I keep doing this to used! I know what works and what I need to do, yet I let myself slip time and time again. This doesn't just apply to my weight loss, but to life in general. I have moments where I am on track spiritually and physically, but hen make bad decisions and stray from that path. I was reminded at Easter that the only label that matters is the one God placed upon me. I am loved, more than I could ever imagine by my Heavenly Father! I am thankful for His Son and and forgiveness. Today is a brand new day and I am starting over. I am setting small goals and reward with non-food items, but things that will enrich my life!

Downs and Ups

So I've forgotten to post for two weeks. First week back on plan was awesome. I stuck to my guns, drank TONS of water and ended up losing 7.2 lbs (190.4)! WooT! Well, that didn't last too long. The second week didn't go as well. I had up and down days of sticking to the plan which showed at the weigh in. I gained back 2.2 lbs, weighing in at 192.6. This week I'm back on plan. I've had several temptations and I keep telling myself NO. It hasn't been completely perfect as I've probably had a little extra approved snacks, but I'm getting better. I hate that this is a struggle for me! It's a daily battle that I have to prepare for every morning. If I don't mentally get myself ready to say NO or stay away, I'll cave. I need to lose this weight for me. I'm tired of the tight clothes and looking at the clothes I can't wear anymore cuz I gained it back. I want my closet back!!!

Two things I've joined to help keep me more on track. My coach has started a biggest loser contest. Every day we have to record if we were on program, the amount of water drank, and if we exercised. I absolutely HATE losing in any contest so this is helping. I don't want to put a zero down for anything! The other thing is Live Healthy Texas contest. You enter your weight and exercise and compete with others. I want to win that too. TJ is on my team, but the more the merrier!! Let me know if you want me to add you to our team! It's only $20 :).

The other big news is that I now have a full-time job. The school I have subbed at for about 4 years, added another aid position to their resource room. They asked me to fill it! I love it!! I've been there one week and will be there to the end of the year (except the one week I had a vacation planned). I'm excited for the opportunity to help the children we see :). They have all been welcoming and I now feel official as everything is all set up. This weekend I need to go find some organization things to take with me and stuff to put on the wall behind me! I love it!! (I think I said that once, but hey it's true!!!)

Now we're praying that this becomes a permanent job next year and not just a temporary position they have. We are also hoping to see the Lord open some doors for TJ to find a new job in his field. While Frito-Lay has been good to us, he would like to be able to find a job where he can use his passion for training and developing (he's really, really good at it!!). Also praying for my step-dad Mike, and my sister-in-law Laura to find a job that they will really enjoy and provide for their families! So far 2012 has been an amazing year for us, just praying other things that have been a challenge come together (having issues with worker's comp....TJ had surgery the beginning of January).

Until next time.....God Is Good.....All The TIME!

Here we go again....

Alright, truth time. I haven't posted in sooooo long, but I think that was partly that I didn't want to admit to myself what was really going on in my head. I've been struggling on and off. Some days are fine and I don't think about the miscarriage, other days I have a really hard time. Now we are nearing when the baby was due and I've had to have a reality check with myself. The past month though God keeps giving me little hints to maybe part of the why-- 1) TJ had shoulder surgery. Workers comp is making things difficult and he's not getting paid either. We have to fight that. He should get some short-term disability soon, but ugh. He also wouldn't be able to hold a baby very well cuz only one arm is usable at this point. 2) There is a possible job opportunity for me. I can't talk much about it, but afraid I wouldn't be considered (even though it's illegal), had I been 8 months pregnant and going to take at least 6 weeks off.

Unfortunately through the ups and downs, I have gained back pretty much what I had taken off last year. So, I'm back to square one. TJ and I started back on plan last Thursday, so weigh day is tomorrow. We have been supporting one another, taking walks, challenging each other with drinking water, and connected to a large support group (which is awesome!). This time the weight is coming off for good. I will not sabotage myself. We do plan to still try to start a family but this time I'm not doing the "I think I might be pregnant so I should add some extra stuff in case I am". It's 100% OP until I get that positive....then it's slowly adding what I need for the baby. It's about me being healthy!!!

My plan is to update the blog at least once a week on weigh days. Hopefully I get better at blogging!!!!

Week 7

Well, I am supposed to be reporting a weigh-in, but I have learned that there is one week a month I skip that. It's not that I'm off-plan or anything. It's cuz for some reason that monthly cycle that us females have to endure always throws things out of whack. By the week after I'm usually good to go. So I don't step on the scale--I just hope for great results next week...so stay tuned :)

Let me know if you are interested in staying up to date with how things are going with my program and my clients! :) I send out newsletters throughout the month with health tips and other information. If you are looking for a program to help you loose weight or just become healthier and then keep it off let me know! :)

Baseball and Weight Loss!

Well it's a day late, but it's time to check in with my progress from last week! I had an awesome week! I had two favorite parts. First was going with my brother and husband to the ALDS Game 2 for the Rays vs Rangers....GO RANGERS! That game was awesome. I had finally just gotten my voice back, only to loose it again. Oh well it was way worth it.

The second favorite part was weight in yesterday to be down 4.2lbs!! WooT! I have decided that I'm not going to resume the c25k until I am at goal (and hopefully that's by February!). The program states to not exercise too hard as you will exert too many calories. I really think that is why I was struggling for a few weeks. So no running and in a couple more weeks I will start the walking program (gunna wait till week 3 like we're supposed to do!).

Today I am changing my hair color again. I'm going darker, trying to get it near my natural hair color so that come time for my dad's wedding it won't look over highlighted :). I can't believe that is a month away. We have also gotten through the "no trying" period the DR recommended after the miscarriage so, here's to hoping and praying for God's perfect timing! Now I feel I have rambled on about random stuff....time to go dye my hair!

Weigh In

So even though I hit the reset button yesterday, I forgot to weigh in. Well maybe it was more like I didn't want to know, I was afraid! Today I stepped on the scale to see 184.8. Not happy about that, but not as bad as I thought it would be. Looking forward to what Monday will say! Now it's time to finish menu planning from the leanest and lowest carb meals! :)

Square 1

Frustration....that was how I felt last week. It was a great week for everything going on, but I kept seeing the scale slowly creep up. I had been following plan and exercising, so why the heck was I gaining slowly instead of loosing? I have absolutely no clue. So I hit Friday depressed about it and decided I didn't care. I took the weekend off mentally...from almost everything but the insanely busy 5 days I had. Today I'm back at square one. I have decided to stop the couch to 5k program for a few weeks and see if that's what was causing the issue. I'm re-reading my quick start guide and going to stick with the leanest lean and lowest carb veggies. I need this weigh to come off! I had high goals set that I have had to reset once and now I might have to adjust them again which frustrates me. By the new year I want this weight gone. I want to be optimally healthy and know that I can do this!

It's also time to reset my priorities. Today I've felt a little under the weather so taking a little bit of a mental health day to rejuvenate myself. I have a few things I need to get through daily, and need to make them my priority over other things. The computer will need to be shut, and the TV off--they can be a reward for getting things done. Mondays are going to be days that I set my goals for the week including weight. I'm going back to weighing in on Mondays--I think that will keep me accountable more on the weekends. It's time to practice more what I coach towards. Let's go!