Funk

So I'm still in this funk, and I've hit 60 days till cruise, so it's time to step up the effort! I need a good workout plan. Preferably one from home, but I do have access to a gym through the summer (too darn hot to not have the option of a treadmill). I have two goals for this summer: be a better Health Coach helping others towards optimal health, and shed the last pounds left! TJ and I just had some major motivation when we went to the Old Navy sale this weekend. I bought some SMALL, yes I said small tops and a size 8 skirt. They were both a little snug, but the size up was too big! TJ bought size LARGE shirts and swim trunks! I don't know when we were both in those size clothes, it's been before we knew each other (we met in 2003). So, the motivation is for those clothes to look perfect by cruise time! I know we can do this, but that means we have to be strong and not let our eyes sink us into something we don't really need. So here is the 60 day countdown--I have 34 lbs to loose...yes I'm being honest which means I have gained 5 lbs from my lowest weight. This is going to happen, I'm ready for optimal health! If you missed it, here's our before and half-way pics. :)

I also plan to begin blogging once a week if not more. Please follow my blog and help me be more motivated! :) I need to get more creative and have some weight trackers or tabs...gotta figure that part out!

Half-way Pics!

Thought you might like to see pics of TJ and I at our half-way points!

 

 

Confession

Well, it's that time again. I haven't been on in a while and that usually means I'm ashamed at what I have to write! I have been really great getting up in the morning and starting my day off right with the Lord, and I'm almost done with my study of Paul (which means I need something new for my mornings!). I have had my days where I overslept, but tried to at least read the scripture for the day and prayed on my way to work. Where I have been slacking is my weight loss. I haven't been following my plan, which bums me out. I still have 25 lbs to loose and afraid that maybe its more. I don't want to weigh myself right now. Tonight is my step-dad's 50th bday and there won't be anything healthy about that so tomorrow I'm back on my horse. I have 25 to loose by July 20th when I go to the National Convention for Take Shape For Life...the cruise is the following weekend! Lots of things going on but it will all be worth it!

So I've been trying to figure out why I can't get myself on track. Stress and depression. Not severe depression but just really bummed about the struggles of trying to start a family. I need to get over myself cuz it's only been 6 months and many people I know have tried long and are still trying to find out there are more complications. I pray for us all! I need to turn this over to God and allow Him to work in my life. I feel certain he wants me to be a mother, I just need to find some patience! The hard thing is to not feel like a failure, like there is something really wrong with you. I keep feeling like it's our month and then hello aunt flow. I have  my yearly in October so if we haven't conceived by then I figure that's when I'll ask the Dr about the next steps. Hoping it doesn't come to that, but I also know there are alot of things out there that help. One of us might just be lacking in some vitamin or something...never know. So here's to the next 5 months...please be praying for us! Thanks!

Reset!!

The last few weeks has sent me on a whirlwind. I can't get my brain to completely shut off and totally stressing myself out. On top of that I'm not in my daily devotional and not staying on plan with Take Shape for Life. So today I'm hitting the reset button! I'm getting myself back on track. As soon as I finish this post, I'm grabbing my bible and doing my daily study. I've started off the day with my Medifast Hot Cocoa made with coffee and when it's finished, only water till I've had 64 oz. My timer is set to eat every 2.5 hours and on plan! I can do this!!! I have 11 weeks to loose 25 lbs, and it will be done! I really hope I have it done in 8 weeks!

Ok so that vent is over...now what else do I need to reset. Well, the last 6 months have been exciting as we are starting to try to have a family. Now I have hit frustration and stress about it, which not only isn't good for you, but also hurts conception! ARGH! So, it's time to stop tracking everything and just have some fun. My obsession with The Bump 411 app, needs to cease--only use it when have a serious question. I know God has a plan and someday I'll see that the timing is perfect. It's time to turn it over to God and trust Him! Will you please pray for me!?

The last part stressing me out is the job front. I've enjoyed my 7 years at Starbucks, but I'm so ready for it to be over. I really hope that come mid-June, when my stock options are fully vested, that we can cash that out, pay off bills, and I can turn in my two week notice. The stress there is just not worth it! I love going to Rountree to sub and be with the people there. Part of me really wants a full-time job there, and part of me really likes to be able to pick and choose my days. I haven't looked really anywhere for a teaching job, due to everything going on in the teaching world, guess I should get my act together, cuz you never know! The last job hat I wear is a Take Shape For Life Health Coach, which I feel I'm slacking off on. This week I have today (Monday) and Wednesday off which I plan to try and organize my life back together. I wish my phone would sync to Outlook so I don't have to put it in two places, but hopefully that's coming with an upgrade soon to the iPhone4 (or 5 depending on it's release). If you know of people looking for a health way to loose 2-5 lbs a week send them to my website (www.TeamOgroske.com). I'd love to help them on their journey!

Ok, so there is my rant for the day. Thanks for reading, and praying.

*Smacks the Reset button!*