The Complex Simplicities of Life: Week 16--down another 1.4

The Complex Simplicities of Life: Week 16--down another 1.4: I have forgotten to update in a few weeks! It's been busy around here! School is in full session so I'm tired when I come home from work...a...

Week 16--down another 1.4

I have forgotten to update in a few weeks! It's been busy around here! School is in full session so I'm tired when I come home from work...and in a week I will be running a 5k so I've been trying to run as much as I can! Weight loss has slowed a little, but that is to be expected 16 weeks in and I added more exercise. I am loosing the inches (4 total this week--1 from my waist!), so the weight is just shifting from fat to muscle :). So the weigh in today...I was down 1.4 and broke the 180s! Back into the 170s...can't believe I'm only 10 away from the 160s which has been about 10 years since I was there. It's going to be a journey, but I'm going to get there! Still have my eye on the prize of a tattoo at 150 and many shopping sprees in between (my clothes aren't fitting!!)!

The big non-scale victory (we call it NSV alot) this week was fitting into a couple of my favorite jean skirts. I love the feeling of getting into clothes I once loves and them fitting (some are even a little big!). I can't believe I'm saying I love wearing skirts again...it's been a while!

Week 14 Weigh In

It's weigh in day!!! I am happy to report I am down 2.6 from last week!! That's a total of 24.4lbs since June 1. That puts me 11.8 away from my goal for the end of the month and 31.8 from my tattoo goal. I also calculated the inches lost in the last two weeks and that was 3.75 inches! Woot! It just shows if you make the decision to get healthy, follow our easy plan, and don't cheat (!) the pounds will just melt away. Attached is my beginning June picture and the now--after 3 months! Can't wait for the next picture (hopefully monthly now)!

Where has the time gone?

Wow...where has the time gone? My last post was almost two months ago! I totally got off track from posting on here weekly. Hopefully I can make the commitment to myself to come back weekly. So where am I...well I'm down 21.8 lbs since June 1st. I was hoping to be further along, but you can see I had some weeks where I didn't make the best decisions. I'm back on track and have a goal in sight. My friend and I decided to set a weight loss goal and go get the tattoos we have been thinking about getting! If I stay on track that will be right about the holidays!!! This coming new year I will have a brand new healthy ME!!!! So excited for the weeks to come. Lots of things on my plate and busy weekends, but I WILL prevail!!! Stay tuned for more update (if I remember to get back on here!).

Minus Monday---Week 5

I know what you are thinking..."It's Monday! You usually weigh in on Friday?!" Well I did weigh in on Friday, just forgot to post. I didn't have a very on track week, even though I prepared myself and ate healthy things I did have too much veggies...and did sneak a cookie or two at nanas :/. I weighed in at 0.8 up last week....that put my at 194.2. I was bummed at myself and realized getting below 190 for vacation was looking slim.....

Well, TJ left the scale out and I couldn't resist. I really wanted to get to 187 by the time we leave on Friday. In the last 3 days I have lost 3lbs! Luckily my body washed out the bad stuff I have eaten!!!! So here I sit at 191.2 now....thinking 187 might be realistic! I have stuck to plan, and low and behold IT WORKS! Duh Kendra!!!!!

I am also going to prove to myself this vacation that you can vacation and have fun and stick to your plan.....which means when I get home and weigh in I'm gunna loose weight on vacation! Who has heard of that?! HA!! This girl is gunna do it and conquer one of the times that usually gets me way of track. No excuses this time!

On a different note, I also finally conquered my fear for finishing week 5 of the couch to 5k running plan. Day 3 was a 20 minute straight run...no walks to break it up like every other day! I kept going back to week 4 telling myself I couldn't do it. Well Saturday I DID IT! I started a little slower but the last 5 minutes pushed it back up to where I had been running the 5 minute run! Woot! Starting week 6 today. Our first 5k will be at the end of September. I have 4 more training week so I think I will be ready to run the whole thing!

If you ever want to know more about my program shoot me an email or message me on facebook! :) The program is really easy, just like anything else in life you have to be ready to commit to yourself and follow through the plan. I would love to guide you along your weight loss journey as I travel through mine!

One Month!

Well it has been 4 weeks since I recommitted to the program and made my plan. I forgot to weigh in last week (-0.5) and now this week down -0.9! The last two weeks have been a little lower than I wanted, but I began working out which can slow things down a little bit. I am hoping in the next week or so the numbers jump back up to 2-5lbs a week :). If you take my 12.6 loss for the month, that averages down to 3.15 a week...which is in the range! So it was a great month. Now to reach the first goal which is in two weeks! I had planned to try to reach 180, but with the slower loss the last couple weeks, I'm going to change that to 187. That's 6 more pounds so the next two weeks I have to be really careful. Be more mindful of bites, licks, and tastes. Stick to the program and drink at least 100 oz of water a day! So here goes July! It's full of parties, family gatherings, and VACATION! This is doable, and I'm planning ahead. I got more bars and ready to eat products in to make traveling easier. Also will make sure for any gatherings to take healthy options (salad and chicken) so I can stick to plan. Let's go!!!

Weigh Day Week 2

Well my second weight day is here and I get to move my marbles again! WOOT. I lost 2 lbs this week! I'll take it! On our program the average weight loss is 2-5 lbs a week so I'm right on track. I also always have a slow week for the month...it occurs the same week every month if ya know what I mean ;). I used to only loose maybe a lb, or nothing, and sometimes gain that week. The next week it would fall off again. SOOOO hoping for another big week next week. I have 14.8lbs to my goal of 180 before vacation. I've gotta get my butt moving! That's 3.7lbs a week. It can be done...just have to work extra hard to avoid the little cheats: bites, licks, etc....I'm feeling pretty good too. I've hit the energy push which is always awesome. Hard part is actually sleeping! I've got extra energy from the fat burning and on top of that not going to work all day (even though it is work with my nieces here), my body just doesn't want to shut off at night! I still end up with around 7 hours of sleep so that's good.

It hit me this past week too that this weekend last year I was telling my family that we were expecting. I had it all planned out to give "grandfathers, uncle, etc" cards to everyone and see if they could figure it out. It was a fun time for sure, yet now a hard memory. I was hoping we would have news of another little one by now, but we are now in the waiting for God's timing part. It's in His hands when it will happen again. I am in a better place where I am actually smiling writing this, thinking about last year. God's holding my little one looking down on us and on day I'll meet them. Can't wait to have a big family BBQ up there...well ya know what I mean :).

Hope you all have a Happy Father's Day!

Got a case of the Mondays

I got through the weekend pretty well. Had a few instances where I had some huge chocolate cravings, but we drove past the gas station and I made an on plan brownie :)! Looking forward to another weigh in Friday! I started experimenting with the meals to see what I could make up. Not straying too far from a recipe, but hope to find something yummy!

Drum Roll Please......

So today is one week since I'm back on program (and remember I'm pretty much starting over having gained what I lost back). The scale this morning said 196.8! That means last week I lost 9.2lbs!!!!

I was shooting for 8 so I surpassed my first week goal! Woot! Now my next goal is for when we go to Washington DC for vacation/conference. I am shooting for being 180 by then so I have a hug goal of 16.8lbs in 5 weeks! I can and will do this! Thank you all for you encouraging words and support! Check back in next Friday for my next weigh in!!!

Oh and I got to move my marbles!!!! (insert some sort of joke here) I can't wait till mine look more like TJs but I can and will get there!

It's day 5...

Today I began watching my nieces and so began outside temptations daily in front of me. The Cheddar Sun Chips that Camille didn't finish could easily have been a little extra for myself...but I resisted! Huge step and goal for me! Now to continue that for the next uh...8-10 weeks?!? It's gunna e worth it when I see that magic number keep getting closer and closer every Friday!

I read a blog today about being honest with yourself and putting it all out there, well here it is....I need to lose 66 lbs to be at my goal of 140. So if you do the math last Friday I had allowed myself to creep back up to 206. I was ticked at myself and hopefully that's all the more motivation to keep going.

Also it's time to be honest with the miscarriage. I thought I was through it, yet it somehow always creeps back in too and it hurts. I met with a new OBGYN last Friday and was very pleased with her and how they will help me through my next pregnancy (which I secretly hope is really soon!). She was very supportive and I think it's gunna help me tons. I liked Craig ranch OBGYN, but they did not handle things well with my miscarriage and I look back and feel like many times I felt distant from them....did not feel that way with Dr. Allen (even though I waited and hour and a half).

So here we are....honestly and reality time. This is for me, my husband, and my family and my future kids. I WILL do this, I CAN do this!!! Thanks for your support!!!

Day 3...

I survived day 2! There were many temptations including Kerry's world famous Oreo Balls (Oreo's are my favorite!). The BBQ was hard but got through only eating 1/2 a burger--no toppings! Then dinner at Pluckers! I managed to get myself a salad with my naked chicken tossed is a sauce. Pretty good if I say so myself! And I had water!! Not a mother plucker! Now it's day 3...the next 2 are usually my hardest as the hunger from detoxing hits and sometimes a headache. Pushing through and can't wait for the scale Friday (yes I changed my mind cuz I really want to move the marbles of pounds lost!!!).

This week also begins summer clean out for me. One room at a time getting rid of stuff and organizing! First the office pit, then kitchen and living room, bed room, bathroom, etc. I hope the downstairs is done by the end of June!! Also Tuesday I start watching my nieces! Looking forward to some fun crafts! This week we're gunna make our own crayons as I have tons broken laying around!! :)

Day 1

Well day one is in the books. That's usually one of the hardest days just to keep on track. The chips and salas at dinner were hard to resist, but i got through it! Yeah me!!!!

Now the next 2-3 days are the second rough part then it's smooth sailing. After creating weight loss tracking jars, I think I'm going to weigh in weekly so I can move the marbles! I'm excite about this part! Each marble is a 1/2 pound. That way I get to move them more often and more of them! Here's to day 2!!! Let's go!

New leaf...

Today embarks the day I turn over a new leaf. I know I have said this time and time again but I have got to do something for myself. It's time to put away the excuses and anything else that may creep up. They weight needs to go and I have to be ok with things that happened last year. It's hard seeing people pregnant and all they talk about it baby this and that, but honestly I've got to be ok with it!!! I need to be happy for them, but sometimes it's just hard. Summer has began and I'll be watching my nieces this summer. I'm going to find a good study to dive into and I've got two tests and two book studies so talk about gunna be busy! No more excuses, no more lying to myself. I was depressed and might sort of still be but I'm gunna push through this. With God on my side I'm gunna make it! I know in His time we will have a beautiful family, until then I need to take care of myself! Let's do this!!!!

It's a brand new day!

Again I have been gone for a while. Why do I keep doing this to used! I know what works and what I need to do, yet I let myself slip time and time again. This doesn't just apply to my weight loss, but to life in general. I have moments where I am on track spiritually and physically, but hen make bad decisions and stray from that path. I was reminded at Easter that the only label that matters is the one God placed upon me. I am loved, more than I could ever imagine by my Heavenly Father! I am thankful for His Son and and forgiveness. Today is a brand new day and I am starting over. I am setting small goals and reward with non-food items, but things that will enrich my life!

Downs and Ups

So I've forgotten to post for two weeks. First week back on plan was awesome. I stuck to my guns, drank TONS of water and ended up losing 7.2 lbs (190.4)! WooT! Well, that didn't last too long. The second week didn't go as well. I had up and down days of sticking to the plan which showed at the weigh in. I gained back 2.2 lbs, weighing in at 192.6. This week I'm back on plan. I've had several temptations and I keep telling myself NO. It hasn't been completely perfect as I've probably had a little extra approved snacks, but I'm getting better. I hate that this is a struggle for me! It's a daily battle that I have to prepare for every morning. If I don't mentally get myself ready to say NO or stay away, I'll cave. I need to lose this weight for me. I'm tired of the tight clothes and looking at the clothes I can't wear anymore cuz I gained it back. I want my closet back!!!

Two things I've joined to help keep me more on track. My coach has started a biggest loser contest. Every day we have to record if we were on program, the amount of water drank, and if we exercised. I absolutely HATE losing in any contest so this is helping. I don't want to put a zero down for anything! The other thing is Live Healthy Texas contest. You enter your weight and exercise and compete with others. I want to win that too. TJ is on my team, but the more the merrier!! Let me know if you want me to add you to our team! It's only $20 :).

The other big news is that I now have a full-time job. The school I have subbed at for about 4 years, added another aid position to their resource room. They asked me to fill it! I love it!! I've been there one week and will be there to the end of the year (except the one week I had a vacation planned). I'm excited for the opportunity to help the children we see :). They have all been welcoming and I now feel official as everything is all set up. This weekend I need to go find some organization things to take with me and stuff to put on the wall behind me! I love it!! (I think I said that once, but hey it's true!!!)

Now we're praying that this becomes a permanent job next year and not just a temporary position they have. We are also hoping to see the Lord open some doors for TJ to find a new job in his field. While Frito-Lay has been good to us, he would like to be able to find a job where he can use his passion for training and developing (he's really, really good at it!!). Also praying for my step-dad Mike, and my sister-in-law Laura to find a job that they will really enjoy and provide for their families! So far 2012 has been an amazing year for us, just praying other things that have been a challenge come together (having issues with worker's comp....TJ had surgery the beginning of January).

Until next time.....God Is Good.....All The TIME!

Here we go again....

Alright, truth time. I haven't posted in sooooo long, but I think that was partly that I didn't want to admit to myself what was really going on in my head. I've been struggling on and off. Some days are fine and I don't think about the miscarriage, other days I have a really hard time. Now we are nearing when the baby was due and I've had to have a reality check with myself. The past month though God keeps giving me little hints to maybe part of the why-- 1) TJ had shoulder surgery. Workers comp is making things difficult and he's not getting paid either. We have to fight that. He should get some short-term disability soon, but ugh. He also wouldn't be able to hold a baby very well cuz only one arm is usable at this point. 2) There is a possible job opportunity for me. I can't talk much about it, but afraid I wouldn't be considered (even though it's illegal), had I been 8 months pregnant and going to take at least 6 weeks off.

Unfortunately through the ups and downs, I have gained back pretty much what I had taken off last year. So, I'm back to square one. TJ and I started back on plan last Thursday, so weigh day is tomorrow. We have been supporting one another, taking walks, challenging each other with drinking water, and connected to a large support group (which is awesome!). This time the weight is coming off for good. I will not sabotage myself. We do plan to still try to start a family but this time I'm not doing the "I think I might be pregnant so I should add some extra stuff in case I am". It's 100% OP until I get that positive....then it's slowly adding what I need for the baby. It's about me being healthy!!!

My plan is to update the blog at least once a week on weigh days. Hopefully I get better at blogging!!!!